There is something that I have been thinking about as I have been writing these articles about faith and God here on this site. Who am I to talk about faith and God? I am a sinner after all. I struggle with the weakness of my flesh. I can be stubborn and impatient. I’ve been married four times. I have children with three different men and none of those men were my husbands. Although that isn’t all that unique these days, it is a valid dis-qualifier in whether I have anything valid to offer on the subjects of faith and God. I am a nobody. Who would want to listen to or read anything that I have to say? Yet, God has used sinners during biblical times in profound ways. Moses was a murderer, but called upon by the Lord as was the apostle Paul. When Jesus walked the earth he spent his time with sinners. God allows us free will to do what we will, but then he will use our sins to glorify his power and compassion to demonstrate that it is by his grace that we are saved, not through our own works. 2 Corinthians 12:9 “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Ephesians 2:8 KJV “For by grace ye are saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God.”
As I mentioned in my last post I experienced some things when I was a child that both tested and strengthened my faith at the time. It was one of those experiences that can seem senseless and without meaning while it is happening. Strangely however, I don’t ever remember thinking that it was senseless or without meaning. I don’t remember ever asking God, “Why me?,” “Why is this happening?” What I do remember is having this belief that God was preparing me for something and a certainty that he would carry me through it. Sometimes I think that in some ways my faith as a child was at it’s strongest.
God did carry me through that difficulty and he has carried me through many others since. Some serious and others not so seemingly serious. But each experience has helped shape me into the person that I am today and I have gained because of them. There are blessings even in the difficult times if we are willing to look for and have the courage to find them: Our test becomes our testimony. It is through these difficulties that I have come to realize that while I am a sinner and may be nobody to the world, I am somebody to God. I am his creation. I am one of his children. John 1:12 But to all who have received him–those who believe in his name–he has given the right to become God’s children. He loves me so much that he won’t rescue me from every difficulty, but what he will do without fail is see me through them. As I’ve said before and it bears repeating, God isn’t so much concerned with my physical comfort as he is with my spiritual growth and the fate of my soul. Our bodies decay and perish, but our souls can live on in everlasting life. Therefore, it would be a fruitless exercise to ask “Why is this happening?,” “Why me?” A more meaningful and valid question would be, “Why not me?”
Like relates to like and sinners relate to sinners. What I mean by this is that someone who has suffered trauma may not be able to relate to someone who has not. There may be a trust issue there. They may have trouble believing that someone who has not suffered trauma could possibly understand what they are going through. A sinner may have trouble relating to or believing someone who claims to have no sin or attempts to hide their sin from the world. Mark 5:19 KJV Howbeit Jesus suffered him not, but saith unto him, Go home to thy friends, and tell them how great things the Lord hath done for thee, and hath had compassion on thee.
Make no mistake, we are all sinners and there is a battle going on in the spiritual world that will determine the fate of our souls. While God is working on me, he is also using me to do his work on others. We are all linked with God at the center. I touch lives everyday simply by living my own life. And you do too. Although what God wants from me: is that I touch lives in a meaningful, thoughtful and intentional way. Therefore, despite being a nobody to the world I have something to say and I am called upon to share it because somebody needs to say it and perhaps someone needs to hear it as well. What I say may not appeal to all. What I say may not be popular or well received. Not everyone will agree with me, but maybe, just maybe it will plant a seed within someone that will start them on a different path. Maybe, just maybe it will be the lifeline that they need and are in search of. Perhaps we can all help one another… I am nobody, but in Christ I am Somebody.
Until next time, Live Authentic. Live Intentional. Pursue your dream. Live with purpose.